Tanling's blog! (:

Friday

Wah!

Been a long time since I updated.

Cool.

Finally got my rank. ):

But quite stunning ms lee announced to whole coy I was a sergeant all along.

HAHAHA! Shyshy! xD

Cell.

Clean-ed Art room.

Eat.

Bm Mc.

Like this whole week continously went there except tues.

Starting from next week, mon&tues gonna stay in school for 3hours arts! Ahh!

EVERY wed got maths&chem test! Ahh!!

NVM! :D After Mc.

Went Joel's BBQ yesterday! =D

All the way @ changi cranwell bungalow.

Think is that time we go one.. where we open the door, is beach le. (:

But his different, no beach @ the back. HAHA!

It's ok. =) Had a great time anyway. :D

Hee.. Then, benedict&his daddy drove us back, thanks! :D

Reach home, bath-ed, then zzz about 1+am.

Saturday

SENTOSA!

Woke up late, but thanks kaman for the doorbell. :X

Rushrush! Forgot bring money AGAIN! Everytime! D:

Vivo. Skytrain.

Beach!

Got wet the first, everytime! =(

HAHA! No la, actually quite good..

Coz once I'm wet, I can splash people ALL I WANT! xDxDxD

Then, playplay..

Play dog&bone and pictionary.

Vivo.

Ate.. Half bowl full. Force myself.

SUPER FULL!

Bm.

Cell.

Game.

Sharing&all.

Learnt 3 ways devil will tempt us. COOL! Flee, devil, flee!

Drink soybean milk.

Service.

COOLCOOL! AWESOMEawesome! =D

Mc.

Eat doublecheese plain. (:

Sent jennie home.

Home-ed.

Now..... SLEEP! :D :D :D

Finally.. My bed, here I come! Hee.. Nights! =D

11 more hours and it's gonna be a new year! :D

2010 here I come! (:

'O' levels!!! D: D: D:

Gonna mug all year through.

Gonna give my best.

All the sec 4s and 5s out there too!

Last chance.

Don play anymore ah! (:

Ohmygosh..

My target is 9? Possible? HAHA!

Hmm.. Anyway, don worry.

Although I'm mugging, anyone who wants to sms or ask me call ya(coz I don have free incoming), ya still can do that.

God will help me! :D

Also, gonna give my best for gb in the coming 3months.

I'll miss GB!!! D:

Anyway, arts students, we must concentrate during arts lesson le!!! HAHA!

If not, cannot revise our academics after that.

All the best for all subjects. :D

See ya around! :D

Take cares! :D

God bless ya! :D

Can we go back to where we were? D:

Or must we really move on?

Although we stay one block away, but..

Why don I see ya? D:

Even granny asked why ya never come already. D:

I missed those days where ya used to call me up and ask a question repeatedly & I've to explain over & over again.

Where we used to have recess together..

Where ya used to ask we to teach ya uncleared subjects.

Where ya used to ask me out although I'm very busy.

Where we used to go out with others to have lunch or what.

Where we used to talk and laugh like never before.

Where we cherish our friendship after primary's hostile.

Where our character clash but we are still together.

Where sometimes communicating seems so hard but we persevered.

Where ya understanding rate is very low, and I have to repeatedly explain to ya.

Where I want to hang out late with ya, but ya parents don allow.

Where we used to play basketball together.

Where we bought the same handphone stripes.

When I lost it, I'm afraid that I might lose ya.

And it's quite true.

I guess I noe what's the reason that seperates us but that shouldn't be the cause.

Where ya go? Where have ya been?

I pray that God will transform ya and change ya to a better person.

I pray that we can be like how we use to be.

I'm sorry that I don really tell ya secrets but ya gotta understand that I'm not an open person, and we jux got to together not long ago.

Like after we're in the same class, then we grew closer, I guess?

I mean I had two causes that they both betrayed me.

Ya noe it, right?

Especially primary, ya involved in it. CLYT?

But actually the main cause is I'm not open..

I still remembered the last secret was about who ya like. (:

I'm not disappointed or what when ya didn't heed my advice, but end up, the one getting most hurt is? Ya, my dear.

HAHA! Nvm. I noe if ya not for me, God will grant me a true, understanding, loving, huggable, new one. (:

Stayed at Berjaya Times Square.

Shopping centre with hotel upstairs.

Very cool.. But one room two keys only. -.-

Not bad.. Asked mei like what star hotel, she said like 3 or 4 star.

Remembered Ms Goh once told us singapore's 5 stars is malaysia 3 or 4 stars. HAHA!

Wah! She tell us coz next week gonna stay at Kuching 5star hotel. HAHAHA!

Okok. Got bathtub, showering room, toilet, one big bed, sofabed, tv, iron, fridge and etc. (:

First day

Went to buy jeans, then rush to FMC.

Meet @ about 3pm.

The bus driver very funny la, commonwealth hear as KOVAN. -.-

So, was delayed.

Charged my phone while waiting. :X

And was smsing people! :D :D :D

I so gonna miss ya! D:

When bus arrived, slept in the bus.

Had to pass THREE customs, two carrying luggage. :/

Passed THREE paying thingy.

Paypaypay.. No wonder bus is $60. HAHAHA!

After that, continue zzz-ing.

Took photos. (:

Malaysia don really have lamps by the side of the road ah.

One toilet break, one dinner; had A&W.. And pack some back.

Reach-ed hotel about 10+.

Continue again. (:

Thanks Weixin for the Seaweed Shaker Fries.

Actually we rob her of her money. xD

Xueting, Kaman, Tricia and me. :D

One word: FUN! :D

HAHAHA!

Didn't slept last night.

Studied. (:

Rested at 5.30-6am.

Wanted to eat, not much food left, so didn't eat.

Rested at 6.45am again.

Until 8.45am!!! :O

Mei and I gonna late!

Ahhhh!!!

Headache, can't do things fast.

So, slowly pack and all.

Reach school 10+am.

Change to boots.

Drills, sun, worse headache.

Went to rest in canteen, lying down on those CLEAN chairs, but got guys.

Abit obsence, so took the felt to cover myself. :X

HAHA!

Went opposite bought chicken rice.

Get bestie homework from him. CANTONA, must be grateful to me ok? :D :D :D

Haha.. But he also very nice, offered to give me pills for headache, but i don want. (:

Went back school.

Eat, laugh, fun, joy! :D

After that, went BM Mc with Xueting, Kaman, Tricia and Weixin to meet May.

Janica never come! D: She got English thingy. D:

HAHA!

Tham and Kaman bought the PVC board for writing happy birthday wishes for Charmaine and Elaine. :D

Like I said, rob wx of her money.

Then, she wanted to move from a seat to another.

She thought was attached one.

After that, she fell into the hole in between..

Alot of people at Mc laugh la.

I was laughing like mad coz of the uncle.

He laughed like don noe what, cover his mouth, am-chio ++ abit gay la.

HAHAHA!

Sorry, weixin! Hope ya ok now! :D

Sew the keychains, HALF-way done in the 4hours?! -.-

Went Central with Xueting and Kaman.

Bought sticky for Charmaine again but also Elaine.

Yesterday Tricia and me bought for Charmaine le. (: (: (:

They doing the first biggest and most letters candy. :D

Get to sample.

HAHAHA!

The text is 'customer satisfication'.

They spent 2hours doing while we watching. (:

And the outer damn nice!!! :D :D :D

I want!!! Frame it up! HAHA!

Left at 8, 9+

Bought bubble tea, apple green tea, double pearl, less ice for me. :D

Green tea, double pearl, less ice for mei. (:

Kaman bought Caramel Oreo. (:

Then, came home.

Granny's leg recovering after I prayed for her.

But she still use the tailsman.. -.-

Last time always use le, no use. (Umpteen times still useless)

Now that I prayed for her and she is cured! :D

Wah.. D:

She cheat my feelings, make me wanna cry lo. D:

She said she believe that Jesus will heal her (and He did) but she disappointed me. D:

Anyawy.. Gonna rest.

Oh.. But before I go.. Dumb, look here, thanks for telling me your problems. :D

Remember I'm always there for you like how God is. :D

This is the Bible verse I promised you! :D

'2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance nust finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.' James 1:2-4. :D

and

'7Be patient, then, brothers, until the Lord's coming. See how the farmer waits for the land to yield its valuable crops and how patient he is for the autumn and spring against each other, brothers, or you will be judged. The Judge is standing at the door!' rains. 8You too, be patient and stand firm, beacuse the Lord's coming is near. 9Don't grumble against each other, brothers, or you will be judged. The Judge is standing at the door.' James 5:7-9

Whenever I thought of you, tears jux keep flowing.

Whenever those flashbacks come by, my heart will bleed, seriously.

I forgive and forget.. So many times but ya never fail to disapoint me. D:

So many times, partly because the Bible said that I should not only forgives 7 times, but as many times as Christ had forgave me.

And Love is not keeping the records of wrongs.. But ya doing it. D:

I afraid.. afraid that one day.. If I don have the courage to give in or talk to ya..

What will happen..

I will praypray and ask what I should do.

Meanwhile I thank Charmaine, Nelson and someone for hearing me out. :D

Really thank God for ya! :D

Love ya! :D

Encounter weekend has ended, but the real encounter has jux began. :D From someone. (: (: (:

Okok.

So sad Xueting, Marcus, Nelson, Jeremy, Victor and etc. can't attend.

It's really a very great weekend for me.

My heart is still pumping very fast, think the holy spirit is still excited in me! HAHA! :D

Night 1

Took bus to Praisehaven.

Saw Kenn and Kewei at Holland bus-stop. :O

After that, had lots of laughter. :D :D :D

Reach-ed.

Chenwei was damn funny la.

When she got down the bus, she bang into the stone thingy at the bus-stop.

But thank God she's alright! (:

Saw Jennifer, Fiona and Evenlyn

Jennifer wanna hug me then she stunned, saw my twins.

Then, she like :O :O :O

HAHA!

Reach-ed Praisehaven.

Saw Qianwei and Dan. (:

Sat with Qianwei.

CHARMAINE, where are you?! HAHA! :D

Watch-ed 'The Crossing' second time.

This time I finally can hear what they say, as in loud and clear enough for me to understand.

Haha.. (:

After that, had a short pre-encounter session.

Write notes, write notes, write notes. (: (: (:

Supper, ate kaya bun.

The kaya super GGGRRREEEEEENNN!

Fiona said like highlighter. HAHA!

Then, sat at the table near lift @ level two.

Evelyn had to do forfeit, videovideovideo! :D

Wash up, then zzz. (: (: (:

Day 2

Oah! Morning! :D

Wash up.

Stone.

Breakfast; Beehoon with hotdog. & yummy beancurd. (:

Upload photos to fb soon! (:

Session 2: Who is God?

He is the Prodigal Father! :D

Guan Han, Manfred and Joel acted the story in Luke 15.

Hilarious! Videovideovideo.. but some parts only. ):

Upload to fb soon! (:

After that, praypraypray.

Touchedtouchedtouched, criedcriedcried! :D :D :D

Session 3: Sin

Ms Quah. Woo hoo! :D

When she said she's teaching in Henderson, only i woo leh..

Everyone turn back.. Then, i jux focus on her (never feel ps) :D

Talk about girls' BGR. (:

Lunch.

I like the box! :D

And food too! (:

Thanks Dan and another guy.. eh.. Mark ah? HAHA! :X

Butbut.. I don eat cabbage. :X Can't eat, I mean. D:

Okok..

Fun & games.

Went wcp. (:

Played 'cross the river'

Wah.. Our stepping stones really became bits and pieces.

Like gaim chai. :X

Forfeit with Joel's group. :D

Sang the 'He is God'. :D

Went Mac with Charmaine, Dan, Qianwei and Chenwei.

Rain only AFTER that.

See how God works. :D

Thank God! :D :D :D

Anyway, realised I left my phone on the bus(when i was sleeping) when we are playing the game. D:

Told Charmaine, Dan, Qianwei and Benjamin.

Thanks for helping! :D

Thank God we went to the same bus.

My phoney still there! :D

Then, zhen yuan talking about some operation thingy.

He said that time he go poke the gall bladder until blast, then the liquid flow out.

Charmaine: Eeeee.. The shit flow out ah?

Mei: Huh? Gall bladder leh.. It's bile.

After that, Zhen Yuan disturb Charmaine say we use heart to breathe. Charmaine say yes leh.

HAHAHA! Lungs to breathe, heart to pump.

But I was damn tired, not much energy to talk.

So jux kept quiet. (:

Reach-ed

Talk-ed to Fiona about my sin list. (:

Didn't bath.

Haha..

No time! ):

Dinner.

Nice food. (:

Not long beans I think.

Haha.. ate afew only. :X

Session 4: Sin's solution

Prayed, touched, cried, peace! :D

Charmaine prayed for me, then accompany me burn sin list.

Haha. Felt a peaceful sensation. (: (: (:

Baptism.

Charmaine. (:

Threw the duck into the water..

Haha.. Demo for baptism.

Violent.xD

I want to Baptise!!! D:

But must wait until granny.. or I marry. D:

NVM! I must have Faith! :D

But I took the baptism form. (:

Supper, didn't eat.

Played Truth or Dare in the room with Charmaine, Fiona, Evelyn, Qianwei and Chenwei.

After that, hungryhungry.

Charmaine and Fiona wanna go find Dan ad Joel for food.

So, I go along, then Qianwei and Chenwei tag along too.

Not much food. D:

But ate abit of the dark chocolate bar, yummy! :D :D :D

Fire alarm.

I was stunned, at first ok leh.. Qianwei freaked me out, she screamed, then i jumped.

HAHA!

Abit emo also.

Joel asked what happened, didn't tell him..

But told Charmaine. Sorry, Joel. HAHA!

After that, played Heart attack.

They abit dirty la..

Use slippers to whack.

HAHA! But thank God not face. :X

After that, play Seven Level.

Fiona really can control her smile and laughter ah. HAHA!

But sad leh.. I was the first to level up. Not paying attention. D:

Stop playing at 1.30am like that coz Pastor Deborah came.

And she sorta had a talk/ scolded the Leaders. D:

Apologised.

Went back room, wanna zzz but they kept talking.

HAHA! But after that, total silence and nights! :D

Day 3

Woke up at 7+.

Washed up. Packed.

Breakfast was noodles with fishballs.

Shared with Fiona.

Haha. (:

Session 6: God working on the inside

I wanna be in circle 2 where Jesus is at the centre! :D

Session 7: Vision

By Ms quah and Mr Ong.

Receive the gift and blessing of tongues. :D

Thank God! :D

Lunch. :D

Yummy! :D

Went back room.

FIll in evaluation form. (:

Home Sweet Home! :D

After some deep-thought-ing, came up with this.

Inspiring leh. xD

Okok.. (:

Why do people always think about how much they have given to others then how much MORE others have given to them?

Loving others is not looking back on how much you have already give them and do a comparison..

If they give you lesser than you do, then you stop giving and complain.

If they give you more than you do, then you continue giving them

Wrong! It's not this way.

Love is going beyond the expectation you have for yourself.

Love is not being calculative.

Love is having patience beyond your own limit.

Love is being kind and not showing attitude.

Love is not giving up but holding on.

Love is not complain and grumble but genuine care.

Love is sacrificing and not selfishness.

Love is forgiving and forgetting and not remembering.

Love is respecting and not ignoring.

I apologies to those who I have not love enough (but I deny that I hate/dislike anyone).

And I hope that those who had hurt me and not love me..

Will read this, and really repent. I don expect a apology or anything. Jux want God to really touch and change you. (: (: (:

bold words are similar to what I thought of. :D See how God grant me knowledge and experience. :D

The bible says in 1 Cor 13:4-7

Love is patient, Love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trust, always hopes, always perseveres.

Thank you, God! :D I LOVE YOU! :D Gonna really really really 'see' ya later and the next two days! :D :D :D

Gone for encounter weekends. :D

Until sunday..

Miss me! :D

Miss you! :D

Morning.

TYA.

Meet at 9.15am at QCC.

The little boyboys play fighting. :X

Siti very nice. (: Once I reach QCC, she INVITED me to sit beside her. (: (: (:

9.30am leave.

She wants to partner me. So sweet. Haha. (:

In the bus, she ensures that noone is left out from her side, thoughtful. :D

Reach 162.

Went 4th floor. The  halloween party venue. (:

Had character day. (:

They talk about RESPECT. Wah! HAHA!

Only Jeremy, Geofrey, Darius, Elaine, Xueting and me went. Others: 2 cross-country members and ashwin.

Noel, Yvonne, Mabel, Gwen and Dan came too. (:

Merge with Hougang club. (:

HAHAHA!

Blahblahblahblah..

Wrote encouragment paper to Nuraini and Siti.

Nur volunteer to do a dance(although she don noe what she is going to do a dance.)

Confidence and volunteery. :D & Etcetc. :D

Siti: Very nice and sweet. Ensures noone is left out. (: And etcetc. :D

Lunch

Sat with Dan, Nelson, Yvonne and Elaine. :D

Had the super dry and weird fishball noodles.

Dan said its appearance not good + if it's him, he won't eat.

HAHAHA! Then, I jux try.

The noodles stick TOGETHER one lo! D:

Humph! I want to eat Mee Hoon Kway!!! D: D: D: My favourite handmade noodles. :D

But closed. D: No choice but to eat that weird weird noodles.

Realise I weird too. The chilli padi I said not very spicy, but the chilli paste I find it weird and spicy.

I'm WEIRD!! HAHA!

Thanks RICOCO for helping elaine and me take fork, save my day!

Seriously, I don really use chopsticks and I don like too! D:

Then, tell them more about Marcus, Patty, Darius, Jiayang and Jeremy. (:

Remembering Marcus playplay cut Candice hair then go disturb her, in the end, she scolded him!

I cannot contol my laughter. After hearing what I said, they never laugh leh. D:

Must really see then funny. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

GB Leadership Programme

Play games.

Play-ed 'lai, lai, lai' and 'blindfolded musical chair'.

FUN! :D

Continue again. 2.23am le. Damn tired. hahaha.. See ya! :D

OhMyGosh!!! HAHAHA! Joker. :D

Haix.. I'm down in the mouth.

I really don noe what granny wants..

She'll only tell us what ah tun did wrong when she's angry.

Really spoil ah tun.

HAIX! Now don even noe when ah tun is speaking the truth and when's not.

She lied too many times.

Not one, not two, not three. More than ten or twenty times.

We trusted you again and again.

Even when we caught you red-handed, you still deny.

I really don noe what you are thinking, what you have been taught and how are your children going to be..

I really can't imagine. It's way beyond imagination, too ridiculous and scary.

At this age, your maturity is still so low, seriously..

I'm not being bhb, judging her or whatever.. But honestly, her maturity level is like a sec 1, and even I'm more mature than her.

She's not first-timer maid, surely she noe what's expected from her and how she should behave.

Saw her doing something, yet she deny. I saw it with my OWN EYES! Are you trying to say I'm lying or I'm accusing you?

Then, tell her 'you lied so so so many times, how to tell me to believe you? HUH?'

If it's you la, you've been cheated extremely many times. like more than 10 or 20 times, do you think you will really really really trust the person so fast?

In jux less than one day? OF COZ NOT! Others may not even trust you the second time.. As the saying goes: 'once bitten, twice shy' Which idiot will let the snake bite so so so many times?

But why do you want to abuse the trust given to you? You think it's fun? Or what? You want to change us? Think we are people whom you can easily take advantages of? Yup, maybe for the 10/20 times, but NO LONGER now!

Let me tell you, YOU ARE ABSOLUTELY NO LONGER TRUSTABLE!

I SERIOUSLY DON FEEL LIKE CARING!

A wolf under sheep's clothing. Your true colours are already out. Very colourful! You are a good hand in lying but it's flawful! I don wanna to say anymore, I don want to judge, criticise, or do whatever to you. It's not very nice. Actually, I would rather live WITHOUT A MAID, maid are too troublesome, and you don noe what kind of person they are.. Too scary for me. TOO SCARY. Because of you, I changed, I cried, I scolded, I sorta judged and I did alot of things that I don wanna do. I protected you.. Giving you so many chances, and you took it for granted. I really don noe what you want and how to even change you to a better person so that you are someone your children look upon to and not look down on.

Someone of genuine love, caring, wise, mature and someone that will be able to make your children obedient children..

Seriously.. You got our trust over and over and over again.. but now you've LOST it.

And it can never be earned back since ya're leaving.

I'll miss ya, certainly will. No matter how many wrongs you did, didn't I forgive and forget. I really don noe how to what do you expect more from us..